October 15th is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. Around the world, families commemorate the day by lighting a candle at 7pm local time to create a "wave of light" around the globe. In honor of today and our son Asa, I (Jo) am sharing a poem I wrote in the months after Asa was... Continue Reading →
His Hands
I almost lost myself… Rationale strung in knots; sentiments tempted to tear. Sight opposed belief. Crippling brokenness overwhelmed. Nihilism overtook. With clenched fists held high, flailing in the air, “How could this happen to me?!” I sat destitute with Job beside me. His arms were raw from boiled flesh. He was alone and rejected. ... Continue Reading →
Eulogy for a Carseat
“You can just set that anywhere on the floor over there” I looked down at the empty infant carseat awkwardly dangling from my hand. Then I stared back to the impersonal floor space I had been directed to in Babies R Us. I paused. I felt like this space required a ceremony or a eulogy... Continue Reading →
We Are All Left Grieving
Can you feel the dissonance? After living in 11 places in the past 10 years, I am familiar with the feeling of moving. But in these last months, we all have moved. Almost overnight an unrecognizable world has emerged, eclipsing the familiar. The backdrop of our daily lives has been abruptly torn away. And even... Continue Reading →
There is Beauty Here Too
A thick covering of white snow blanketed our Easter weekend. Just when perky daffodils and welcoming tulips were emerging and greeting our tired souls with hopeful color, an ocean of white overtook them and washed them out. In the middle of a global pandemic, the new life of spring sparked reminders of hope, and I... Continue Reading →